Thursday, June 26, 2008

Time Flies: reprised

Now that it's been a few months, one might think I have some amazing update. Nope. Not really. My world is still frozen in the fire.
I am in a UCLA study for Bipolar, which has been decent. I don't know if it will end up being the salvation I had hoped for, but thus far it has proved helpful.
I realize that I just don't think there is much reason to blog... I mean, I have a sketchpad I use as my journal, and that hardly gets the attention it deserves. Besides, while my life remains uninteresting or unfortunate there doesn't seem to be good cause to write.
I have considered using this page to review movies (so I could get free press screenings), or to make some kind of social commentary (which I would have lots to say about) but it comes right down to one question: Who cares?
We live in a society now where we broadcast our thoughts to the world without any second thought, and just expect that this is how it should be... but is it? I mean, I would like people's opinion on whether it is helpful for us to remove the concept of privacy from our lives. I'm on the fence about it myself.
What do I have to gain, spilling my soul to the internet universe? What do I have to lose? Is what I have to lose more or less important than what others may gain from my immodesty? Does anyone have anything to gain from this removal of the mental filter?
Anyway, when I do blog, I often wonder who to address my thoughts to. I'm sending out a message with no direct audience, and for someone who is so personable and sensitive to my dialogue partner- I don't know how to do this... this one sided conversation.
My best friend blogs and does videos and it seems to come so naturally to him... to perform with no known audience, but for me, I find myself constantly asking "Why am I even bothering?"
If a girl speaks into the webverse, and no one hears it, does it still have meaning?